what happens when she sees those emails? those encouraging words and evaluations? why do they represent soemthing big for her? yesterday she was arranging a whole bunch of papers, bank statements and health reports. she discovered alot of old stuff hidden beneath, so old they go back to her college years.
why from all of the papers she is holding, she pulls one report , so randomly, then she sees the doctor's name which happens to be exactly as his, consider that his name isnt that populaer or familiar.she was surprised but she ignored it.
she found a large pile of horoscope related issues, she start arranging them and the one paper clings to her hand is the one describing nothing but thier own 2 zodiac signs!! do i need to ignore this as well?? this is what she thinks to herself. well, lets cast signs aside, but at least she understood this phase of going back and forth between both of them . she wants some consistency, he doesnt. he wants having some fun time, so she is, but with a prosperious result. this was the only issue, other wise, they are match made in heaven, or shall we better say earth?? for both of them have acknowledge the fact that God somehow forgot about us, the earthy people, long time ago. this is thier life, and they shall live it here, with all the sensations they can muster. he told her once, life is too short, enjoy it, come on and let us have fun together.
she wants to have fun as well, but forever?? is he sure about that?? she would like to travel, go clubbing, roam around for some weeks, have salsa dances with him, only him, discover new things and live the moment, but for her, she would like to spend the rest of her life with him.
the coffee is cold, she doesnt care.
she remembers those 2 great lines form the old grumpy men in the old muppet show, " the question is: what is a manah manah." and the other replies, " the question is : who cares?"
applying this to her situation, it would be like, the question is : do i really need to be with him all my life or just enjoy the few moments we might have for once together?? and the reply is " the question is: does he really care?"
she puts the mug into the sink and leaves for work. but with a small grin on her face.